Sweet annihilation

So the doctors have decided to kick Mom out of the hospital today. She's not "acute enough" for them to keep her in rehab. This despite the fact that they've been giving her morphine every four hours for her pain. Luckily a friend of the family has volunteered to take her in until it's time to move down to Atlanta. But I've got some major concerns over this, given the amount of drugs she's still on to keep her comfortable. However, it's out of my hands, which is infinitely frustrating.

So how does one deal, at least in the short run?

Toss on some grindcore.

Yep. It's been awhile since I've done the grind thing, but I have to say that today's listening has improved my outlook on things considerably. So I'm flailing around the office, slamming into people, and bellowing at the top of my lungs.

But all on the inside.

The blastbeats, unbelievable riffs, and the general rage-against-the-evils-of-the-world attitude are so purgative. Don't believe me? Check out these three Nasum tracks off their album Human 2.0. Guaranteed to mow down anything in their path.

A Welcome Breeze Of Stinking Air - Hyperbeat madness until the 40 second mark and then the groove kicks in. Add some political nihilism and everything seems so much brighter, no?

Now the balance is set
We're changing foot from left to right
Eager and with false hope
We gave them our trust
Speech on speech
Lies on top of lies
Empty Promises
The guys are having such a blast....
But nothing's changed
It is just a different set of lies
Nothing's changed
It is just a different set of lies...
Attempting to win
It's a race without a finish line
They're all relay-runners
And you're left behind
Thank you, come again
It has been nice shitting you
Improvement's around the corner
Your vote made a difference...
But nothing will change
It is just a different set of lies
Nothing will change
It is just a different set of lies...

We're Nothing But Pawns - The inverse of the above. Groove first and then destruction. Strange how the pessimistic lyrics still make me wanna fight for something.

In the world where we live
We're nothing but pawns
A tool of their trade
A brick in the wall
- Nothing but pawns

We are nothing - only tools
Disposable and easy to get
We got fucked, we are such fools,
We saw the hook and swallowed the bait

They fool us, seduce us, buy us, use us
Defuse us, smash us, kill us, trash us

In the world where we live
We're nothing but pawns
A tool of their trade
A brick in the wall
- Nothing but pawns

Sometimes Dead Is Better - One of their most melodic tunes. Check out the positively upbeat introduction. Sounds like Pearl Jam for one second and then rips off your face. Once again, there's a certain hopelessness in the lyrics, but glimmers of hope ("Let's reach for the door before we cave-in")

Your heartless compassion just tears through my flesh
Like burning red flaming blades of steel
You got it all but there's always one more pound
Cutting with precision you know what you want
Don't divide me from myself what you say fucks my mind
Got me in a tight grip but still you clutch harder
Sucking me dry by just looking at me with your eyes
Disengage me from this constant pain
Our worlds keep on colliding,
we're heading for the total collapse
So why do we bother trying?
We are just destroying ourselves
All this makes us fucking blind,
or are we just to scared to see?
What's dead can't be kept alive,
so let us just leave this be
My stubborn struggle to hold on only pushed you further away
I didn't know it killed you though you bled before my eyes
There are still things about you that I will never learn
I could never understand when something was wrong
I sense a cold shiver as everything falls into place
Nothing good will come out of this
Let's reach for the door before we cave-in
But everything will explode
Our worlds keep on colliding,
we're heading for the total collapse
So why do we bother trying?
We are just destroying ourselves
All this makes us fucking blind,
or are we just to scared to see?
What's dead can't be kept alive,
so let us just leave this be


Today's episode is brought to you by the following:

Nasum - Human 2.0
(premium mind erasure material)

Various - Position Chrome
(Panacea and the boys do dey thang)

Lamb - Lamb
(jazz and dnb live in harmony)

LFO - Frequencies
(blip bloop doop)

Diana Krall - Love Scenes
(because it can't rain all the time)